by the request of katy reed

forgive me for the austerity of this post, but im going back and using my blog as my journal, although somewhat edited it still remians honest.


here's where im at miss reed...being back is good. its nice to finally geographically settle down for a while. im living alone, well, actually im living with my pup whom you ought to reaquaint yourself with for she is quite spectacular these days.

now i think you know the reverse side of me being back...the lack of people, friends. you had mentioned that i was looking for like-minded people and while that might not be untrue, i think im really just looking for people who fit me and i them. some who are willing to love without question. ive experienced that only a few times in my life, and well regardless of the number, those people have changed my life completely. so, here i am back in nac, spending way too much time alone, but at the same time, im not worried. thats not to say that i dont have days where i fret like a madman but its rather to say that im not so frightened of being alone. people will come, i will go out. hopefully sooner rather than later.


pandora.com

this a recommendation to all. how great is this. and oh how late i am to find goodness.


i think i want to be a river rafting guide after college. and during winter a ski patrolman or something thats on the mountain but not an instructor. maybe, maybe an instructor but only if my people skills improve dramitcally by that time then ill reconsider.


speaking of people skills....man, i have i acquired the habit of exhausting those who invest in me. oh how demanding i become of them. and for what? nonsense really. im sorry to those who ive done that to. and im sorry to myself, for it bears great consequences.


katy reed, the greatest tangible gift you ever gave me are 'the weepies.' thank you.

i have thoughts but am depleted by any extraneous use of my mind outside of school. when i do i get confused, then frustrated, then sad and this go round id like to avoid all three.

i love you too katy.


this is the road i live on. i like it a lot. just figured id introduce you to where i live in case youre not able to visit.